jus fuckupp

its just fucking unreasonable.

parents r jus fucking unreasonable. i dont want go into explaining....but jus tht mai life sucks nows....its turning worse as days passes... I WANT TO DIE........pathetic.

anyways i flared upp in class......ppl keeps saying imma wit HL.. i-NOT-wit-him....kays...fer me i find him short >>''' sooo nonononono... and i dont think im his cuppa tea too..sooo yeahhh..I NOT WIT HIM, WE ARE JUS GOOD FRIENDS KAYS??? (thou i dont really kno wadd he treat me as la...) and forever it will be.......soooo its IMPOSSIBLE between us. furthermore... i jus had mai heart broken...i not gonna accept another relationship tht fast.......>>'' yeah... UNDERSTAND???
anyways he like/loves someone else le....><" GOT IT?? IF YOO DONT...........DAN JUS FUCK OFF.

anyways......but to me....towards mai good friends and especially classmates..i try not to emo to much......someone said it was vy attention-seeking and she hates it.....wadeva.haha.but >>''' .......but i jus TRY not to... it hurts seriously...especially on wed...i was emoing almost whole day....moping around...dan someone touched mai head..??''' ands harris tuched mai hair...at th moment i really felt like dumping something in his face...><" but after being left alone during lunch..i thot about some stuff...and manage to cheer upp......and PJ was grossed out by mai hand >>'' LOLs...... anyways after tht we had drama.....and luckily.....we had no acting.........we left at bout......5pm barhs...we den went old chang kee..i bought LOTS if food and a can of coke....hahaha..food makes wonders...i manage to cheer upp wit PJ tgt wit me (: THANKS! haha...sooo at 6plus....we went bac........

he dan called me........i didnt answer............didnt felt like......
dan i started to emo again...cried again dan...............slept at 3am.....

today...wasnt really any better....i manage to smile and laugh wit the clique...they could help me forget and numb myself fer awhile....but wen im sitting without the clique in class....the pain jus starts coming bac....cutting...its a stupid thing tht only idiots does....i am one......>>'' but im trying to cover it...furthermore i had thoughts of jus cutting deeper or jus thru mai hand..but thinking about it maybe not.....first, parents...second, classmates and friends...so i cant....but whos cares? no one.................no one really cares or understands......its best no one understands.....weird stuff goes thru mai head.....yoo wouldnt want hear it...

TY ro all peeps who tried to cheer me upp...especially ceecee and priya.. xDD really appreciated it.