13th post DDDDX

today ish one of the worse dayy EVER...
bad luck cms one after another... =.=''
imma taking a longg time to post.....coz im ding the drama BC script while msging, msning, eating and blogging >>'' haiz...totally busy....

i going to flunked mai geo test todae lohs..didnt study AT ALL....gosh~~~><'' laterrs still must do WANWEN's BIG NAME...promised her...hahahax.sians.......then i had to wait fer ms hariyati wit PJ to et her fone.....she was sooooo lonnnnggggs lehs. then wen she came.,she told PJ must parents cm and take....WALAU!!!!waste time!!!!
i went hme.....bath...on laptop...eat...do script lohs.......den inn kee call me say i took his wallet.. WTH??? I DIDNT LOHS...I DONT EVEN KNO HOW HIS WALLET LOOK LIKE >>" LOL... pathetic la....

felt better todae....(: hahaha. aaron smsed me....whether i was free... i havent replied him yet...most likely imma not replying le....


anyways to WANWEN....

HAHAHA.. bigbig ones.. happy????

12th post....

life is jus like a song...wen it ends....its over........

well yeah....we broke..its jus ended sooo fast....two words does its all "its over" and i lose him jus like tht........he wants us to remaim as good friends....but can i???? i really doubt i can.....its hurts to see him as jus friends... hes been trying to call... but i really dont wanna answer it.......... trying to pretend it alright,gets easier as time goes by..i kno one i'll snap...but let me try get thru each day by each day first....


but well its over.....the only thing i could do..is to try to let go................

anyways...skipping all tis...........I SOOOOOO DEAD.....i havent done the DRAMA BC SCRIPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh...I SOOO DEAD.... gotta do it laters.....hahaha..wells...i soooo freakin sleepyy nows lohs..but cant go t sleep...wudnt b able t wake upp laterrs...LOL.sianz....got nothing to write....

ohya..priya got tis ubersuper old fone..its like decades ago since i saw someone using it lohs..LOL. its looks kinda pathetic..hahaha...but the snake game inside is fun!!! BUT NO MUSIC, NO CAM.....THTS uhmmmms.....smth I CANT LIVE WITHOUT..hahaha..hope she gets bac her fone soonn...ROFL...

wells..den..thts alll....babaii..next post....laterrs...


letting go doesnt mean forgetting
it means remembering the memories and
talking bout them without crying...........

jus fuckupp

its just fucking unreasonable.

parents r jus fucking unreasonable. i dont want go into explaining....but jus tht mai life sucks nows....its turning worse as days passes... I WANT TO DIE........pathetic.

anyways i flared upp in class......ppl keeps saying imma wit HL.. i-NOT-wit-him....kays...fer me i find him short >>''' sooo nonononono... and i dont think im his cuppa tea too..sooo yeahhh..I NOT WIT HIM, WE ARE JUS GOOD FRIENDS KAYS??? (thou i dont really kno wadd he treat me as la...) and forever it will be.......soooo its IMPOSSIBLE between us. furthermore... i jus had mai heart broken...i not gonna accept another relationship tht fast.......>>'' yeah... UNDERSTAND???
anyways he like/loves someone else le....><" GOT IT?? IF YOO DONT...........DAN JUS FUCK OFF.

anyways......but to me....towards mai good friends and especially classmates..i try not to emo to much......someone said it was vy attention-seeking and she hates it.....wadeva.haha.but >>''' .......but i jus TRY not to... it hurts seriously...especially on wed...i was emoing almost whole day....moping around...dan someone touched mai head..??''' ands harris tuched mai hair...at th moment i really felt like dumping something in his face...><" but after being left alone during lunch..i thot about some stuff...and manage to cheer upp......and PJ was grossed out by mai hand >>'' LOLs...... anyways after tht we had drama.....and luckily.....we had no acting.........we left at bout......5pm barhs...we den went old chang kee..i bought LOTS if food and a can of coke....hahaha..food makes wonders...i manage to cheer upp wit PJ tgt wit me (: THANKS! haha...sooo at 6plus....we went bac........

he dan called me........i didnt answer............didnt felt like......
dan i started to emo again...cried again dan...............slept at 3am.....

today...wasnt really any better....i manage to smile and laugh wit the clique...they could help me forget and numb myself fer awhile....but wen im sitting without the clique in class....the pain jus starts coming bac....cutting...its a stupid thing tht only idiots does....i am one......>>'' but im trying to cover it...furthermore i had thoughts of jus cutting deeper or jus thru mai hand..but thinking about it maybe not.....first, parents...second, classmates and friends...so i cant....but whos cares? no one.................no one really cares or understands......its best no one understands.....weird stuff goes thru mai head.....yoo wouldnt want hear it...

TY ro all peeps who tried to cheer me upp...especially ceecee and priya.. xDD really appreciated it.

11th post...:(

well.... i totally not in the mood to blog nows.....but i cant let mai mai blog die like tht..:/..smth reallyreallyreally bad happened......and i dont wish t talk bout it... mayyyybbbbeeeee in mai next post barhs..

anyways yeah todays was......uhmms kinda boring.......and OMG! I FORGOT TO DO MAI POA!!!! wadeva la....yeah...then in POA class....i kinda was pissed off wit priya..it was a small thing thou...idk wahy i flared upp...but in the end..we talk tgt again (: then aft skool....we hanged around in class first..then we went off....priya and the rest wnt paya lebar while i went to HL's place slack.....i copied the ss hw....>>''' while Hl fell asleep!! sianzzzz...aft i copy finish then c his rm sooooooo messy then i help him packpack lohs...ABIT better la..:/ then he woke upp and then.........fell asleep again...><''' then i started doodling....on mai ss ws!!!! omg...its still there......haix...then arron(cousin,aaron>ex........) called me then i talktalk to him then he gtg.....HL woke upp..then we talk about stuff.........his father then suddenly cm bac........i was like panicking lohs....but in the end i like waved at him then he said hi.....

6plus...HL brought me hme............then i went hme....quickly shower....thot about some stuff......then i got tuition...................till 9pm......i went eat dinner...then did the usual stuff...stare at blank space..daydreaming.......>>" went bathe..lie on the bed talking on fone asking bout some stuff.......well..............................................thats all...

cant sleep nows...tooo hurt......



tmr wud b a hard day........hope i dont break down or lose mai temper.......i really haf no time for all tis........

fourth bestie!!!!!

BFF and eva!!! hahahaha...
i love yoo, yoo love me, we are happy together, with a great big and and kiss frm yoo to me...wouldnt yoo say we are bffs... hahahahah..sorries fer randomness xDDD
anyways tis girl is totally a pain in the ass....she annoying, bossy and vy fierce...hahahas. but still love her..
known her since p3..hahaha..childhood friends..:D
and her name is.......CEE CEE!!


i likelike........................her............cap!!! :P

she oso one big chio bu.....><''' sianz whys all mai fiends like tht ones...>>
hais...nvmx ba....anyways yur bday cming le..wadd yoo want????? O.O

THIRD!!!!!!!!!

guess who????????????????????????????????????????



the clique of coz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL.but i dont have the WHOLE clique's picture...
sooooooooooo i put tis upp first......>>>


arms too short LA.....AHAHAHAHA xDD

anyways yeah....
theres
dora aka theodora aka TT
priya aka PJ
ting aka huiting aka HT
qianhui aka QH aka the 'cool' one
jean aka jeanette

some random past picts....


HEART....me and proya


funnyfunny!!!! xDDD QH, PJ and me...


PJ, TT and me...hahaha...in toilet.


yeah they are kinda one of the best peeps yoo can eva find thou not really perfect. hahaha. :P

SECOND BESTIE!!!!

PRIYAJIT!!!!...everyone kno her!!! HAHA..
thou she not perfect AT ALL..
but i still love her lots and lots...hahaha..


shes also soo pretty....hahahaha...

but sadly...shes single.....i wonder why no one like her yet..jus hope she gets a bf b4 valentines day..hahahah..

ANYWAYS..YAYA..dont forget my cookies!!!!! its sooooooo nice!!! xd