56th post

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posting frm NANYANG POLY (:(;(;
nothing to do at all!!!!!!!
sianz!!!

wah..mai bday coming!!!!! xDDD
i want....i want....i want....i want.............

1.sunflowers (;
2.BIGBIG teddy (;
3.chocolates :P
4.new phone (:
5.a new laptop (:

hahahahaha....
i not accepting anyting other than those!!!! jkjk xDDD

3rd day at nanyang poly, met lots of peep!!!
made friends, had fun, lmao....

-updated 1:36pm-
totally sianz!!!!
pissed over some stupid things, some stupid reasons!!
fucking pissed sia!!!!!!!
dammit..nida control!!!!!!
controlling!!!! controlling!!!!
seriouslyy going explode alr!!!

wah!!! i dont wanna go malacca tmr sia ):
sianz!

haiz
write another time barhs!
love yoo(;
babaii.

ands...
LOVE YOO DEAN!!! <3


trying not to think about yoo

55th post

i'm losing my outer facade...

wah.....soo long nvr de blog liaos..
blogg dead liaos..
revive back agian(:

have been
busybusy...

exams finally over..(:(:(:

wo you kao hao ma?

okok larhs.(:
2fail.(:

lots of things happened....
but forgot liaos...
soo me decided to not blog bout dem lohs (:

well,
been hanging out with friends alot lately....
and oso starting with homework(:(:(:
so good girl rites ? xDD

cant wait go NYP with sharon fer attachment (:
7days more.....

so far,
went out with wy, leonard, ph
then with pj
with ethan,queenie,aaron,ken,zen and don.......

had drama and POA remedial...

that day, POA remedial onlyy 3ppl turned up....
PJ, me, KJ, chiyean and mr lee
had fun tgt (:

then went PJ's huse talk talk...
went hme after tht...
then went dinner.


wtf....izzit tht unbelievable. tht IM QUITTING ???

DON: yoo want? [pass me one stick]
joie: no.. im quitting [smiles]
everyone[turn and look at me]: ya right...
DON: are yoo sure? [giving me unbelievable look]

wah..everyone like tht the lohs..
no faith in me ):):):
sadd le la...
I REALLY QUITTING LA...
(and to PASSER-BY, i have no idea wadd yoo talking about)

nothing much to write lohs..
will be soon changing blogskin and music player...
okoks?
update again soon (:

lastly.
HL DONT CUT YURSELF LIAOS!!!!!!! ):
CHEERUP CHEERUP.

AND

LOVE YOO DEAN!!! <3
muaks muacks.

BYEBYE.

i owaes needed time on my own..

54th post..izzit jus me?

haiz...no picts to upload....

saturdayy and sundayy...

hmmms..

nothing much....

only went eat buffet with family and friends...

parents,uncle,auntie,cousin..

zen,queenie,yvonne,danny,ceecee,zhongxian (:

had nice time eating sushi,sashimi,oysters and CHOCOLATE FONDUE (:

dip da ice cream into the chocolate fondue machine..

chocolate became hard immediatelyy. (:

hahaha..funfun..

felt full and fat ):

ice cream,marshmallows,chendol,chocolate cake,fruits...

totally filled me up...o:

anyways yeah...nothing more. (:

-mondayy=school holidayys-

nothing much..

jus went out with parents..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

-tuesdayy=go back to school!!!!!!!!!!!-

HL sick...):

hope he get well soon (:

studied and studied...

went sharon's huse..

ate oreo cake (:(:(:

nice nice...

jean came ..

then talk awhile...

till sharon's tutor cm...

we almost made her vomit blood...

cuz our algebra 'good until cannot good' (:

stay awhile more..

then went with sharon downstairs...

met her bf...

kinda cute...nice eyes.....O.O

he walk kinda like gay..hehe (:

went hme..

nothing much..

-wednesdayy=FUNNY HORNY STUFF xDDDD.....

-thursdayy=OMGOMG..-

maths exam start todayy,

quite easy??? okok?

some qns dunoes how do...o:

SS=MAI DEATH BED..0:

tonight then update..(:

i really dunoes wadd happen btwn us....

i want to be the best friends we use to be...

jus so yoo kno...i still treat yoo as a best friend..

she jus mai good friends. (:

hope yoo understand.

and stop showing me black face...

and its not tht i not talking to yoo.

its jus tht yur showing me the attitude..

babaii peeps..

update 'nites.

xDD

53th post.

kinda keeping 'promise' not to emo....



have no picts to put..

so yeah....



-thursdayy=addiction-
english exam...o:
didnt reallyy prepare...
went out the night before...xDDD
seriouslyy....drugs is not a problem alr..
but smoking......is becoming my BIG PROBLEM
its kinda becoming an addiction...):
tht night didnt drink much?
half cup?
but cigerettes, in an hour i 'finish' 5.
total 11?
daryl was like asking me to go slow....
zen was surprised and happyy...
tht i didnt emo...
weirdo....
like tht oso nid noticed...

anyways
todayy....
start of MYE..
english....easyy? okok?
jus had to memorise afew format...
okok larhs...
after exam...
wwent PJ's huse..
62 took sooo long. );
went her huse..
played monopolyy awhile..
game was boring..
playy halfwayy then stopped..
me and PJ talked bout......ALOT of THINGS...
hornyy stuff..
hahahahaha..
hilarous.

went hme,
msn-ed
then studied a little...
then....
drew bdayy card...
fer HL indirectlyy to ww...
didnt eat dinner.....
fell asleep among all the art things...
woke up at 2plus?
do and do...
took a bath at 4plus...
freshen up..
continue doing..
till 6am..
jus nice finish everything, (:

-fridayy=dresses are difficult to wear...-
wah...
PJ no nid go skool fer like 4dayys...
sooo good...):
so tireed lehs..
met HL at 7.10am
passed him card...
then walked to skool tgt...
then.............
he behave like an ass...
ran across the road JUST LIKE TIS. O:
WTHWTH...
then got honked by cars,,,
dumbdumb arhs...
wadd if got knocked....o;o;o;o;

chinese...
quite ok la?
jus very tired..
kept falling asleep...
paper2...
same thing happened..
45mins do..
45min sleep.
tiredtired...
kept yawning..

after skool..
dora,sharon and me went MAC...
then went NTUC..
bought udon, mushroom, cake mix..
separated frm dora there ):
went sharon's huse...
her siister..funnyy? weirrd? cute??
sat by the window talktalk...
her dog came...
super attention seeking...but cute thou <3
wanted me to pat him...hahaha
went to make cake..
then clean up..
watched tv,
dog emoemo lehs..):
go under bed...
played fashion):
became sharon's doll...
made me wear all those dresses...o;
then the LOLITA DRESS
and THAT PINK FRILLY ONES,,,
almost killed me....
but got this tube dress...
very de niice...(:
love her heels too...<3

anyways ran to bus stop to meet dad..
went to fetch new maid..
then bought take-away
fer dinner...
totallyy dead beat,
slept on sofa till the next dayy(:

continue on next post!!!!!!!!! (:

its difficult to choose one, i love both..):

52th post...

ppl say they care....
but are theey lying??
i really dont kno...

todayy....
rainyy...sleepyy...
nothing much...
jus mainly revise work...
HT's sandwich looks fab...
hahahaha...
after skool arranged the table and chairs,
then went hme...

saw ZY at bus stop...o:
then at mai stop....
saw GG....
i was totallyy surprised...
quicklyy walk away...hahaha

reached hme...
took 30mins to open stupid can...
-.-
then fry luncheon meat (:
nicenice...
msned PJ and watch videos..
going to go studyy....
tonite will update again (:

maybe 1am?
mostly likely,
going out with zen and his friends...
till 1am...

kinda addicted to smoking?
idk...
hope not?
haiz...i dont wanna go back to last time lehs...
but i think tis two weeks got at least smoked 17sticks?

nvms....
dont care la...
tonight update again..(:
byebye...

HL, TRY...kays?
and yoo dont emo alr la....
dean, ttyl? love yoo too..
PJ, GROSS MEH...i find it quite nice lehs...
sharon, read yur blogg...dont emo alr...cheer up?



the cuts still kinda hurt....):

51th post....haiz...

i died when you left me.....

nothing much happen todayy..
jus last night...
almost got killed by mum. O;
fer smashing the glass table...
got whacked lohs..
and scoldings...
haiz...
sooo old alr still got caning....
cane until bleed.....
poor me. );
hurts la....

went out again..
about 1am?
after mum sleep...
cab to dempsey road...
slacked there...
drank...
smoked...
but not soo much..
next dayy got skool...
maybe half bott?
and 4cigerettes...


got intro to............drugs....
didnt take them thou.....
good or bad?
idk..

YEAH..didnt get drunk thou...
(:
hahaha
happyhappy...
came hme 3am plus...
went to sleep...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............................

go skool....
almost late?
nah..didnt...
then nothing much...

tis week totallyy broke);):);
haiz....
save moneyy lohs...
havent even started studying fer exam yet o:
DIEDIEDIEDIEDIE...

anyways...
skool nothing much..
lots of ppl keep asking me why i hurt and all...
I DIDNT CUT MYSELF...
IGOT WHACKED BY MUM...
CANED....):
and it bleed...
happy?
art jus got 22/30...okayokay la...);
and didnt go chem remedial...o:
hope dont die...
went library...
suppose to meet dora...
in the end...didnt...
talk wit PJ...
then went her huse NTUC...
buyy things..
went hme...
waiting fer bus tht time..
got tis guyy..
keep staring at me o:
made me feel soo self-consious...):
dunoes wadd he thinking bout....
haiz...
went hme..
msn...
fry ham (:
web-cam with PJ...
going off to go studyy soon (:
needa do art prep work oso...
and revision ..

update tonight (:

NOWS its tonite....
haha...
[updated at 2:24am]

well....
actuallyy..
theres nothing much to write about...
felt fat after eating half the tub of ice-cream...
studyy maths and POA...
drew up time-table....

mum was shocked
to see damages she inflited on me...
and cuts and bruise and blood...
=.=

anyways...yeah,
watched tv...
nothing much to watch...

bath,then lie on bed reading oliver twist
o: shocking ehs?
me reading...and furthermore a CLASSIC...
hahahaha...
fell asleep..
woke up again..
then came on...
only 2peeps on on msn...
no fun ):
going off soon to study...

baibai..
love yoo dean...<3
try barhs..HL...



trying to live a life without you....

50th post....im losing mai insanity...

im reallyy losing it...

im reallyy glad almost everthing ish fiine nows...
the clique....seems more like a clique nows...
PJ and dora....are good with each other nows...
at least mai wish came true...
prayer was answered...
yeah.....
i kno blme ish put on me,
mai fault tht i 'brought' her in
mai fault fer being to friendlyy
mai fault fer starting to talk to her at the first place...
mai fault let her to close to us....
all of these are mai fault...
causing all these displeasure....
the friendship once sooo close to almost break apart...

IM REALLY REALLY SORRY FOR EVERYTHING...

yeah, wadd a certain person say was right,
i was to blame fer tis incident...

anyways yeah...i got nothing to sayy alr....
sooo...lemme continue bout wadd happen on fridayy......

-fridayy=drinks and cigerettes numb the pain, but not for long/the combi sucks-
[2am]
came hme....
parents thot i was with cousins,
but no....i wasnt....
went clake quay...
with couple of friends.....
drank almost 3/4 bott of red wine...
and 4cans beer....
combination of both?
sucks big time...
smoke liike total 7cigerettes?

jus trying to waste mai life awayy

yeah,
left them soon after....
wanted to be alone...
got these few peeps kept following me...
recognize one of them as mai friend's friend...
damn the person...
tell tales on me...
made me get scolded by mi bro...
ASSHOLES..

sat alone...
fer 2hrs plus?
anyways...got hme bout 1am and 2am?
xavier sent me hme...
luckyy mum was asleep alr...
took a quick hot bath..
felt like shit....
went to bath...
head hurts...
whole body hurts....
woke upp again...
puke thrice...
felt like crap....
never felt sooooo bad b4..
head gonna explode...
felt like jus killing myself...
yeah..
went back to bed...
slept till next dayy...
woke up at like 3pm? (:

-saturdayy=GO AWAY-
headache fer whole dayy....
tried to do revision and hw...
yeah....
nothing much...
watch tv laters on...
watch cheaper by a dozen
TAYLOR LAUTNER sooooooo cute....
hahahahaha
he was inside (:
<3
anyways funnny show...

-sundayy=nothin much-
tiredd....
went out with mum at 2plus?
nothing much....
bought alot of stuff...
yeah.....
nothing interesting...

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY PJ!!!!!!!!
sorry bout the cake.):

-mondayy=i really losing mai insanity! wadd was i thinking bout?!-
birthdayy bash PJ...
saw her specs fly...
felt her boob (;
saw muffin fly
swung a knife.
tried to cut cake into 38pieces o:
haiz...
funnyy things happened todayy (;
dora and QH smash muffin into PJ...ahahahahah
funny scenes...
PJ's face uber funnyy...
hope they dont do tht to me.O;
anyways yeah...
left alone first..
let PJ and dora have some catching up time,to talk....
went hme....
fer some reason...
idk wadd got into me...
i jus lose mai temper and push the glass table..
it drop to the floor and BROKE..
into miliions of pieces....
i was shocked...
kinda dont reallyy care...
thou i kno i confirm die tonite...
haiz....
will take somes picts...
broken glass pieces...